Who Am I

My name is Hazel and I was born and raised on the island of Oahu. I often ask myself who am I and why I am the way I am and sometimes I can't quite find the asnswers to all of my questions. If I had to describe myself in four words, it would be shy, family oriented, contemplative, and funny. Others may see the first two right away because I am one who stays reserved and quiet at first if I don't know you. However, once you get to know the real me, I'm not really quiet and shy behind it all.



I've always been a shy person and I'm pretty sure many are when you first meet someone. But I know there's more than that to me and I leave it up to people to be able to see beyond it. I could say that I'm very cautious when it comes to trusting people and it's why I often keep myself distant from others at first. At the time, I had been with someone for almost 3 years and I made a mistake of kissing someone else. I told a really close friend of mines who I trusted very much. She was the first person I thought would understand me the most. I vented out to her telling her I'd reveal my secret to my significant other when I was finally ready. Before I could even explain myself to my guy, he confronted me about the situation. He told me he had found out from his friend who actually was told by the first and only person I told. I asked over and over if she had told anyone but she denied it until she finally gave up and said the truth. I was mad but more so in total shock that she had even told anyone in the first place when she promised not to. She didn't even allow me to handle it on my own. I didn't expect anything like this from her. This was a lesson to be learned. I've had the people I least expect betray me and it helped made me realize that I need to be more careful with the people I choose to trust and dbe friends with. From that, I learned it's just better to keep the worst in the back of my mind and be prepared for it in any situation. Aside from that, I don't foreget to have fun and laugh. Once I'm comfortable being around a person, that when my humor and silliness is revealed.



I am family oriented. Family plays a big role in my life and being away from home and the people I love is the hardest thing I've ever had to do considering my entire family live on the island. My parents and I have always had a close and affectionate relationship. It's been difficult adjusting to being on my own especially missing family outings and parties but I've had to accept it is what it is. I grew up with two very dedicated, loving, and hard working parents who try to provide everything they can to help my brother and I be successful in life. Through many of the mistakes I've made like lying, sneaking out, and disrespecting them, they understood me and allowed me to grow. Doing so, they've taught me integrity, courage, and responsibility. My parents are the two people I look up to because I hope to be as good of a parent as they are in the future. In some ways, they've helped shape me to be the person I am today.



I'm one who does a lot of deep thinking about everything and anything in life. Whenever I have the chance to, I like to refelct on the past and present and try to figure out why things happen the way they do. Life is confusing sometimes and I would just like to figure out the possibilities and be prepared for anythingd. During the process, it helps me evaluate myself and understand how much I've changed and grown as a person in the past years. Sometimes I tend to hold on to the past too long that I get stuck and "change" is something I'm still learning to adjust to.



To me, identity is a set of characteristics that make a person entirely who they are which develop from the experiences one encounters in the course of their life. I may know a lot of things there is to know about me but I'm still in the route of learning more about life and myself each day.