Today I feel tired and blank. It's just another normal day of college and nothing much to look forward to besides getting done with my classes for today and kickboxing class in the evening.
I'm not much of a morning person and having speech class at eight in the morning is not the greatest thing because it's too early for me to think or do any work. I went to speech class and although I was physically there, I wasn't mentally completely there. In that class, my teacher talked about what our first speech should consist of and gave us some tips on how to make it interesting for the audience. She also gave us some examples of mistakes people usually make and gave us pointers to avoid making them. I hate having to give public speeches in front of a class so the entire time, I just kept dreading that day when I finally have to give my speech. I kept telling myself," two weeks to prepare, two more weeks". I kept in mind that I should get started with it soon so that I don't have to worry about it when it gets closer to the day I present. I'm anxious in getting it over with but I'm also terrified. I do know I'm definitely going to start working on it sometime this week. That way, I will be extra prepared on the day of my presentation.
It's just the the third week of school and I still continue to think about home in (Hawaii) often. I feel incomplete because not only am I thousands and thousands of miles away from home, but it's also difficult being away from my family, my boyfriend, and my friends. Considering that I have a very close relationship with my family, it's hard not being able to see them for another three months. I've never had to do anything like this before. The first semester is and will continue to be a struggle for me because I'm homesick and I'm still trying to adjust to college life and change. It's even harder because I'm far away from the people in my life I trust to help me up in any struggle. But now, I have no one to help me but myself. Last semester when midterms and finals began, that's when my days, even weeks began to fly by quickly. I try not to think so much about the day I get to go back home in the summer, but I can't help but think about it. I try to keep myself occupied as much as I can. I'm just taking each day as it comes. I still feel homesick at times, especially when I'm alone which is why I go to a friend's room just so that I'm not by myself. I barely get to see my roomate because she rarely sleeps over at the dorms. It's feels like I have my own room but I'm not complaining and I like it.
Besides feeling homesick, I look forward going to kickboxing in the evening today. I want my body to sweat and feel like it got a good exercise. In the past two classes of kickboxing, I left with a soaked shirt and it's been a long time since I've had good work outs like that. For an hour straight with no breaks in between, there are combinations of punches, kicks, and other kinds of silly but fun moves. The cool part is that we move along with hip hop music and it really does help my movements flow with the songs. It makes it that much more enjoyable. At the end of class, my body feels rejuvenated and I feel accomplished.
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Your essay was very interesting. I'm sorry that you feel homesick, but look on the bright side of things, you made some really good friends here. I know how hard it is to be away from the people that you love most, but the best thing you can do is deal with it. I I agree with you, I too am not a morning person. But as the day goes on everything just gets better. As we all know it school's almost over and you will be back home before you realize it.
I know exactly what you mean when you talked about speech class. I took that class last semester but don’t worry I’m pretty sure your going to do fine. I also know how you feel when you have to wake up early in the morning because I have to get up early to go to work too. I’m sorry you feel homesick. I feel homesick sometimes too but my home is only two hours away though.
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